You call me up, say you want me back
You ask me if I could cut you a little slack
Cause times were hard
Yes times were hard

You’re telling me that things have changed
But in my mind I know it’s all the same
And it’s too hard
This is too hard

I can’t come back to you
Even if I wanted to
Even if my heart wasn’t ripping at the seams
I know what’s best for me
And you’re not the man I thought you’d be
But I know I’ve overcome this pain before
If my heart had a say I might be yours
But it’s time to shut that door

I’m not blaming for the words left unsaid
Or the nights I cried alone in my bed
You had to go
Oh, you had to go

But over time I have made my choice
Yes, over time I have found my voice
That says move on
Oh I have to move on

‘Cause I can’t come back to you
Even if I wanted to
Even if my heart wasn’t ripping at the seams
‘Cause I know what’s best for me
And you’re not the man I thought you’d be
But I know I’ve overcome this pain before
If my heart had a say I might be yours
But it’s time to shut that door

Maybe there’s a window in the future that’s left open
Maybe there’s a time when you won’t leave my heart so broken

But that day’s not today’s not today’s not today’s not today
So for today, for today, I must say I must say I must say

[Instrumental]

No I can’t come back to you
Even if I wanted to
Even if my heart wasn’t ripping at the seams
‘Cause I know what’s best for me
And you’re not the man I thought you’d be
But I know I’ve overcome this pain before
If my heart had a say I might be yours
But it’s time to shut that door

If my heart had a say I might be yours
But it’s time to shut that door

   Acoustic video from “Live from The Castle” session coming soon…

If My Heart Had a Say is one of the oldest songs on the album! I actually started writing this back in 2019 when I was living in NYC. To me, this is the perfect depiction of what I (and I’m sure a lot of other broken-hearted folks) have struggled with during a breakup – the internal push and pull of knowing that someone isn’t right for you anymore, but having your heart pull so far in the direction of giving them another chance, or calling them up.. going back to the thing that your brain knows is wrong.

I have this problem a lot. I love with my whole heart and so, when I love someone, my heart is fully in control. It doesn’t matter what my brain says about logically thinking through issues, or red flags, or incompatibility. My heart is in charge. But when I wrote this, this was one of the few times I actually forced my heart out of the decision-making. It had no say, because if it had been up to my heart, I would’ve given the guy another chance. Luckily my brain knew better.